I don’t like to wait.
The thing is, though, I’m constantly waiting on things. Waiting in traffic, in lines, on my wife to get ready, on load times, on my beard to grow in evenly (not sure if I’ll ever be done waiting on that one), waiting on my career to move forward, on opportunity to knock, on a chance to chase a dream.
Right now I’m primarily concerned with the last half of that list. No, not the beard thing, the career and life thing. I want a lot of things that just aren’t happening right now, and by the looks of it, they won’t be happening for a while. That’s very frustrating for me on a personal satisfaction level, and on a spiritual level it makes me wonder what God is doing with me.
Sometimes, it takes a lot of discernment and patience for me to hear what God is trying to say to me. Other times, he just punches me in the face with stuff, like he has been lately. I probably haven’t heard a sermon on Joseph for a few solid years, but in the last month I’ve heard two different sermon series on the life of Joseph, with the addition of a friend suggesting I write about him. OK God, I get it…. read about Joseph.
Well I did read about Joseph, and my life doesn’t parallel his very well. I wasn’t betrayed by my family, sold into slavery, framed, or thrown in prison, but there is a lot I can learn from him. Joseph waited a lot, and did it far better than I do. In fact, Genesis 41:1 says that he waited in prison (for something he didn’t do) for two years. What’s awesome about Joseph, is that while he was in prison, and then when he finally got out, he was constantly pointing to God. Even when his life sucked, and it sucked a lot from what we read in the Bible, Joseph trusted in the Lord. I’ve only been out of college for a little over 5 months, and I’m already questioning the direction God has me pointed in. Luckily for me, the good and gracious Lord continues to be the good and gracious Lord regardless of how well I’m trusting him.
I’ve always secretly patted myself on the back for not worrying about certain things. In Luke 12:22-31, Jesus tells us not to worry about what we will eat or drink or wear. Well, I’ve never really worried about things like money or clothing or food, so I usually just give myself a mental high-five after reading those verses and move on with my day. But I don’t think I can get off the hook so easily. Scripture is pretty clear that trusting in God is more than just not worrying about what’s for dinner. I think I need to take a cue from Joseph, and remember to trust God with the bigger picture.
The best times in my life have been the times where I was truly focused on trusting Him. I still don’t like waiting, but I know that God’s timing is perfect, so waiting and trusting might just go hand in hand.
Here’s to putting our trust where it belongs.